still awake

i cant sleep, i feel restless.

although i have to wake up in 7 hour's time and go to work tomolo, i like this peaceful, quietness and stillness of the night where no one else is awake except me. it's a chilly night but i am comfortable under my duvet. it feels like while the rest of the world is resting and asleep, the world has also slowed down especially for you, waiting for you, being there for you...
and in times when you want to be left alone, dont feel like talking to anyone or there's no one you can trust, a quiet moment such as this is always welcome.

the air is fresh, the night is quiet, things seem peaceful and at rest... even troubles seem less worrisome at night...

i miss such moments. it has been more than 2 years since i stayed up late like this. maybe i am too caught up in life and its troubles to remember that such moments exist. but then again, who dares to go out at 3am in the middle of the night in London...

i make others smile, i make others laugh, i entertain others... but who's there to do that for me? busy is such a common excuse. selfish is such a common trait.

i shall not talk too much, i shall just enjoy the peacefulness of the night.
hmmm, should i have another chocolate...
*yawn*